This few couple of weeks have been both exciting and lonely…..

Exciting because I am getting out and trying to make some new friends, which has always been a problem for me to do. One because I have always been in a relationship and they tended to take a lot of my time, not that I was/am complaining or that it’s a bad thing. In the situation that I am in at the moment it has given me the chance to have some freedom to go out and make some new much needed friends. Not that there was or is anything with the friends I have, it’s just that we aren’t always free to do things and I need more friends to hang out with. Now I have got to meet 4 people since this newly freedom that I have established.

There is Chris who seems like a great guy, but is in the closet and has a few to many issues I care not to deal with. I understand we all come out when we are ready but I have already been there done that. He has asked questions about different situations and all I can do is give him my advice, what he does with it is up to him.

Brad, is a co-worker that I figured I’d try to get to know and maybe be friends with. The guy is um what’s a nice word to describe him as besides saying “crazy”. Will just say he a bit out there. He texts me every so often but he seems so pushy and needy and we all know “Christian don’t do needy” lol Any who one text asked me when we could do lunch, I was like I don’t know we short staffed. His reply well can you answer when you can? Uh hellur did I not just say I DON’T KNOW. People come on…..Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints!! So now I reply short to the point answers.

Now there is Carlos, the only flaw I can find on him is that he has a man, lol but so do I. TEHE No but seriously he is actually a very nice caring guy, really thoughtful and sweet. I have actually hung out with him w few times alone and with his boyfriend. And they are both actually really kool to hang out with. They have welcomed me to there home, we have gone out to dinner and even the movies. Now you would think I would feel like a third wheel, but they don’t treat you like one. So you don’t feel left out. Now they are actually both very outgoing and into a lot of things. Carlos is an actor, model, trainer, and co-owner of his BF and his gym. Besides that he has a few other talents. Tom (his BF) used to own his own business, owns a gym, is a author and a personal trainer…plus they both can cook really good or I think so cuz it smells really good.

Well, those are pretty much the four people I have met and you can tell at least one to maybe two will be eliminated lol.

Now hanging out with Carlos and Tom have made me realize how lonely I really am. I mean I knew I was lonely but didn’t realize how much. But I have been trying to keep myself occupied by getting out more. But even that makes me feel lonely at times.

Well that’s the rant of the day…..