How is it that I have gone from being a cold-hearted bitch to someone that wears his emotions on his sleeve? Things used to roll off my back with not even a second thought on whatever was done or said, but it seems lately I’ve become a tad of a emotional wreck. Not a feeling I am used to or really care to feel, and yeah maybe it’s because I’m not 100% sure how to express my feelings and I’m learning as I go to deal with them then repress them.

What does this have to do with anything you ask. Yesterday I had a very enlightened conversation that was both hurtful and out of nowhere. Well maybe nowhere for me because it took me from surprise and maybe the reason why it hurt me the most.

I was told that it’s always about be and my personal life, do I talk about who I am dating more then I should? Or is it that my “friends” are suppose to be there for me as I am for them. I can’t help being happy with the person I am with and want to talk about them. Yeah I ask about the other person but if they don’t want to talk about how they are feeling or going threw how is that a fair conversation, right? I’m learning to be able to express myself more and more on how I feel.

To accuse me of something, just because you don’t like the fact I don’t agree with you on something doesn’t give you the right to lash out at me. Who cares what anyone thinks about who you like, the only person that should truly matter is yourself. Yes you hope that your friends and family will care about the person you are with as much as you do, but if they don’t like them it’s like my mom always says “who is dating them? You or me?” what does that mean you ask, you are with that person and they make you happy then who cares what anyone thinks. Be happy enjoy life, you only have one life to live try to make it the best you can, and if you friends don’t like the person you are with then that’s ok you are dating that person not your friends. Your friends will come around once they get to know the person.  Now if the person treats you like crap or beats you then yeah it’s understandable why your friends don’t like them and you should probably listen to them because no one deserves to be mistreated.

RuPaul said it best “If you can’t love yourself how do you expect to love someone else”

I’m always going to be there for my friends if I like the situation or not that’s what friends are there for, to listen and talk and be able to give advice. Even though it’s hard to listen to advice sometimes your friends have to be able to understand that advice has to be positive and helpful and not negative by try to bring or tear you down.

So if you feel that all I do is talk about me or my relationship maybe we need to reevaluate our “friendship”. That or start to be more open.

Words from a friend to another friend….. Friends come and go but a TRUE friend is hard to find.