Today I feel all blah, for some reason I feel like I am spiraling into a depression, but not sure why and how to stop it. I’ve always thought about taking antidepressants, but have always been forbidden from it. My uncle is a doctor and said that all it does is give you a temporary relief, but then you can become addicted to it. Things I already know. I just hate feeling this way cuz no good comes from this…..

Thoughts that I have pushed far from my mind try to crawl and make there way into my brain. Thoughts that come with big sorrow and sadness, thoughts that only end up hurting. I try to think of good thoughts and things that can will lift my spirit, but been stuck at work with ignorant people doesn’t help.

Maybe its just that I feel like I’m in a rut. There are a few changes in my life that are happening at the moment, but those aren’t really the reason I feel the way I do. I mean I’m going to be way closer to family and that’s always a good thing, right? Yeah I’m going to be a tad far from my friends but I’m still working at the same place so I can always meet up with them.

Hmmmm maybe I just need to sit down with myself and figure out what’s going on and try to get to the root of the problem. Okay ok I will say this I know I am sad that I can hold or be with the person I love, but seen the bigger picture does help. But picture or no picture not been able to touch that person gets lonely and depressing.

Sometimes it just helps to write things down to let it out…….