Spiraling out of control
Failure, disappointment, confusion
Hurt, angry, displaced

Why is it that when it rains it pours in life?

My mom always said “God won’t give you anything you can’t handle” But what if you don’t believe in him, what does that mean? I know that this is just a temporary thing and things will get better. I know they will, I just don’t know if I want things to get better. I mean we all want things to get better and not have to feel this way, but at the same time I like this destructive side of me. Making bad decisions, going out drinking and not caring what is going to happen in that intense. Not caring who is going to get hurt, blood pumping with adrenaline and alcohol. You feel unstoppable in till those feelings you are trying to run away from catch up to you. Making you feel everything you tried to escape, even if it’s only for one night. Life is both cruel and unfair, but that’s life. Yet at times it can be sweet and unforgettable.