May 2012
5 posts
Gay/Straight
I haven’t thought about this in a very long time, but circumstances that have arose have made me wonder, think. Would it have just been way easier to have been born straight rather then gay? Don’t get me wrong I’m happy with who I am and I would never would want to change any of the experiences that have made me the person I am. I am just wondering and pondering at the moment....
“You may feel as though you know your partner quite well — maybe too well… but you’d be surprise at what you don’t know”
Dr. Phil
April 2012
11 posts
1st day
So today was my first day at my new job, and as much as I was excited I was also terrified. I had been on “vacation” for about 6 months and yeah it got a little scary cuz I couldn’t find a job it was nice been able to just do and go wherever whenever I wanted. Now I have to wake up at 5:45am to be at work at 7am-4pm while I am in training cuz that’s my trainers...
March 2012
7 posts
~Missing~
As most of my friends know I don’t miss people, but lately I have being missing the people that meant so much to me. I’ve been thinking of all the past friends I’ve had and had great relationships with. Best friends that used to be there for me as well as I was for them, where are they now? How are they and are they doing?
This week I have had plenty of time to sit around...
Anonymous asked: What Is Your Favorite Music Artist?
February 2012
8 posts
~Adele~
When I watched the Grammy’s and saw that Adele won all 6 Grammy’s I was and am so happy that someone that worked really hard and deserves it won. I love how both of her CD’s can tell the life of a relationship with a few songs.
Crazy For You
Sometimes sitting in the dark Wishing you were here Turns me crazy, But it’s you who makes me lose my head.
Make You Feel...
~Sigh~
Don’t you wish sometimes you could take something back, erase a conversation or never have a conversation. Well, I wish I could take by time and undo or unlearn something today. Only because I don’t know how to take the information, I’m dumbfounded. How do I take this information and not let it affect things? Do I ignore it and continue going on with things?
UGH!!...
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Lost…..confused…..and no one to talk too
~About Time~
It’s time for me to start letting go of the past and let it control me, even though it has made me the person I am I need to let it go. I’m never get the answers I need and deserve, and I understand that and beginning to be ok with that. So here it goes:
You were one of the two most important people in my live, one of whom was suppose to love me unconditional and protect me from...
~Pondering~
I don’t know why I have become an emotional wreck lately, it’s like I’m wearing my feeling on my sleeve. This is not who I am, I haven’t been called a Bitch, or Cold Hearted, Asshole for nothing. Yet, this couple of months it seems that I feel so vulnerable. Why can’t things just be perfect. Why is it that when you think things are going great and things are going to...
What's wrong with me??
I’m sitting outside Kroger crying, I feel like I’m failing at everything I do. Like I can’t do anything right. Like all I do is hurt people. Today after lunch I ran a stop sign not on purpose but didn’t care that a car was coming. I normally would have hit my break but I kept going like nothing.
Why do I feel this way? Why am I feeling like an emotional wreck…....
January 2012
2 posts
~Hurt~
How is it that I have gone from being a cold-hearted bitch to someone that wears his emotions on his sleeve? Things used to roll off my back with not even a second thought on whatever was done or said, but it seems lately I’ve become a tad of a emotional wreck. Not a feeling I am used to or really care to feel, and yeah maybe it’s because I’m not 100% sure how to express my...
New Year
What a way to start the New Year, first day of the year and I got into two arguments with two people I care about. But they don’t see it that way and that’s fine it’s there opinion. The one thing that I have realized from the arguments is that I need to keep my personal life to myself. No more sharing it only does more harm then good.
Yeah you might think that I’m cold...
November 2011
4 posts
Love
How do you love someone so much you don’t know how to be with them. Why is it that when you love someone all you want to do is protect them and not let them get hurt but you are the one causing all the hurt. How do you protect the one you love and love them the way they should when you can be with them. Why is love so unfair, why do we fall in love with the one person we cant have. Why is it...
Drunken's, hoes and low blows!
What was suppose to be a night of getting away from everything going on in my life, I just wanted to hang out with some friends and have a great time. A good surprise was Carlos, Tom and Steve(n) came as well a little later after we had already started drinking. Well they all decided that they wanted to go dance at this Latin club called “Crystal”. Now I’m not a huge fan of it,...
Life
Spiraling out of control
Failure, disappointment, confusion
Hurt, angry, displaced
Why is it that when it rains it pours in life?
My mom always said “God won’t give you anything you can’t handle” But what if you don’t believe in him, what does that mean? I know that this is just a temporary thing and things will get better. I know they will, I just don’t...
Pondering
Why is it that when I feel like shit the radio has to play the worst timing songs. Lately when I get in the car they will play “Someone like you” by Adele and “The One That Got Away” by Katy Perry back to back. Never fails they have plaid that more then once when I have gotten in the car, and yeah I love the songs, but I guess in the situation I am in at the moment yeah I...
October 2011
3 posts
Another life
Jamie Blunt was only 15 years old and had his entire life in front of him, but he was robbed of it by bullies. Not everyone has a tough skin and those mean harsh words said to them do hurt. Jamie committed suicide because he couldn’t take the bullying anymore for being gay. I read his blog, and you can tell that all he wanted was to be happy and excepted by his peers. But all he got was...
October 14th
Its October 14th and I was just given the news that my last day at my job will be October 31st. And to be honest I couldn’t be more excited, not because I want to be lazy or sit around a home but because it was time. The 8 hours that I was at work I kid you not if you compressed the hours I actually work it would be about 3-4 hours. Not because I slacked or anything, but because we had no...
Who knew
If someone would have told me that I one day would be in this situation I would have never believed it. Who knew I would fall in love with someone living in another country. It’s not something I would have wanted to do, because it’s really hard. Not being able to hold them or kiss them good morning or good night. Or just too kiss hem just to kiss them.
Now I’ve been in this...
August 2011
2 posts
~Bored~
Don’t you hate it when you are at work with nothing to do, it’s like staring at paint dry. That’s my job….slow! Not that I don’t mind it, I mean I’m getting paid to play Angry Birds and Plants vs Zombies. Okay okay they are not paying to actually play those games, but I have nothing else to do. My work is so far done, just waiting on to see what else pops up on...
~Lets talk~
Why is it that when you think about blogging about a certain topic your brain becomes like diarrhea. Full of ideas and thoughts, but as soon as you wanna start writing it, your brain gets constipated. You like my analogy? I need some Brain Pepto Bismol Tehee
Any who I digress, so this year has been a tad stressful year. Lets see one my roommate is inconsiderate, he eats my food, drinks the...
June 2011
2 posts
What's love got to do with it?
Recently I have been hit with the “Reality Stick”. I’ve always thought I knew who I was, but recently I was told that I don’t. More then one person was pointed out that I don’t know who I am or what I want. And if I am going to be honest with myself, they are right. Let’s go back to the begging of how all this “revelation” came to be. On Sunday...
Excited/Lonely
This few couple of weeks have been both exciting and lonely….. Exciting because I am getting out and trying to make some new friends, which has always been a problem for me to do. One because I have always been in a relationship and they tended to take a lot of my time, not that I was/am complaining or that it’s a bad thing. In the situation that I am in at the moment it has given...
February 2011
8 posts
35 questions about LOVE & SEX
I know I’m late answering the same questions from the show 1 Girl 5 Gays. I’m two shows behind, but I am going to try to catch up. So this blog is actually going to have two episodes integrated in it. The first episode aired on 2/14 in the US (CA 9/10) the second episode aired on 2/21 in the US (CA 9/17). Now the show actually has 20 questions but some questions pertain to either...
Life WTF!?
I’m so sick and tired of this life, I wish I could just change everything about me, everything around me and everyone I know. But I cant, we have what we have and we try to make the best of it……whatever!
Now most of this blog wont make sense or it might jump around, but its the way my brain is working at the moment. Everything is jumbled up inside.
I’m so tired of all the...
Long Distance Relationships
So everyone has an in put in my relationship, so I have been seen Brad for almost a year (well a year in March). But everyone or most people believe or think that one of us if not both of us have cheated or will cheat. All I can say that everyone is different, not everyone is a cheater. Maybe we all have tendency to cheat, it’s just our actions that matter.
Now most people think that this...
19 questions about LOVE & SEX
So like I stated before I am kinda hooked on the show 1 Girl 5 Gays (1G5G), so when I heard that the second season was gonna be airing soon I was actually kind of excited. I have watched the few episodes that I am able to watch in the US. Which sucks because in Canada they are in season 2 episode like 18 or so…booo! Well any who, I started to record the new episodes every Monday at 11pm on...
Torn between two....
Its not what you think so don’t get all excited. Have you ever felt like you are torn between two personas? I know this sounds bipolar, but I’m not (or don’t think so…ha ha). Anyway I always say that I have two main personas that fight to take over, most people I talk to know what I mean and kid about it. In one side you have Christian who can be really sweet, caring,...
18 questions about LOVE & SEX
Okay, so I decided to watch 1 Girl / 5 Gays (1G5G) and post some of (sometimes all) the questions from the show and try to answer them. Now I’m going to be completely honest of this 1G5G questions that they have and we will see how it goes. After watching the show I had to delete two questions because they pertained to someone on the show (either specifically someone or someone on there...