February 2012
8 posts
~Adele~
When I watched the Grammy’s and saw that Adele won all 6 Grammy’s I was and am so happy that someone that worked really hard and deserves it won. I love how both of her CD’s can tell the life of a relationship with a few songs.
Crazy For You
Sometimes sitting in the dark Wishing you were here Turns me crazy, But it’s you who makes me lose my head.
Make You Feel...
~Sigh~
Don’t you wish sometimes you could take something back, erase a conversation or never have a conversation. Well, I wish I could take by time and undo or unlearn something today. Only because I don’t know how to take the information, I’m dumbfounded. How do I take this information and not let it affect things? Do I ignore it and continue going on with things?
UGH!!...
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Lost…..confused…..and no one to talk too
~About Time~
It’s time for me to start letting go of the past and let it control me, even though it has made me the person I am I need to let it go. I’m never get the answers I need and deserve, and I understand that and beginning to be ok with that. So here it goes:
You were one of the two most important people in my live, one of whom was suppose to love me unconditional and protect me from...
~Pondering~
I don’t know why I have become an emotional wreck lately, it’s like I’m wearing my feeling on my sleeve. This is not who I am, I haven’t been called a Bitch, or Cold Hearted, Asshole for nothing. Yet, this couple of months it seems that I feel so vulnerable. Why can’t things just be perfect. Why is it that when you think things are going great and things are going to...
What's wrong with me??
I’m sitting outside Kroger crying, I feel like I’m failing at everything I do. Like I can’t do anything right. Like all I do is hurt people. Today after lunch I ran a stop sign not on purpose but didn’t care that a car was coming. I normally would have hit my break but I kept going like nothing.
Why do I feel this way? Why am I feeling like an emotional wreck…....
January 2012
2 posts
~Hurt~
How is it that I have gone from being a cold-hearted bitch to someone that wears his emotions on his sleeve? Things used to roll off my back with not even a second thought on whatever was done or said, but it seems lately I’ve become a tad of a emotional wreck. Not a feeling I am used to or really care to feel, and yeah maybe it’s because I’m not 100% sure how to express my...
New Year
What a way to start the New Year, first day of the year and I got into two arguments with two people I care about. But they don’t see it that way and that’s fine it’s there opinion. The one thing that I have realized from the arguments is that I need to keep my personal life to myself. No more sharing it only does more harm then good.
Yeah you might think that I’m cold...
November 2011
4 posts
Love
How do you love someone so much you don’t know how to be with them. Why is it that when you love someone all you want to do is protect them and not let them get hurt but you are the one causing all the hurt. How do you protect the one you love and love them the way they should when you can be with them. Why is love so unfair, why do we fall in love with the one person we cant have. Why is it...
Drunken's, hoes and low blows!
What was suppose to be a night of getting away from everything going on in my life, I just wanted to hang out with some friends and have a great time. A good surprise was Carlos, Tom and Steve(n) came as well a little later after we had already started drinking. Well they all decided that they wanted to go dance at this Latin club called “Crystal”. Now I’m not a huge fan of it,...
Life
Spiraling out of control
Failure, disappointment, confusion
Hurt, angry, displaced
Why is it that when it rains it pours in life?
My mom always said “God won’t give you anything you can’t handle” But what if you don’t believe in him, what does that mean? I know that this is just a temporary thing and things will get better. I know they will, I just don’t...
Pondering
Why is it that when I feel like shit the radio has to play the worst timing songs. Lately when I get in the car they will play “Someone like you” by Adele and “The One That Got Away” by Katy Perry back to back. Never fails they have plaid that more then once when I have gotten in the car, and yeah I love the songs, but I guess in the situation I am in at the moment yeah I...
October 2011
3 posts
Another life
Jamie Blunt was only 15 years old and had his entire life in front of him, but he was robbed of it by bullies. Not everyone has a tough skin and those mean harsh words said to them do hurt. Jamie committed suicide because he couldn’t take the bullying anymore for being gay. I read his blog, and you can tell that all he wanted was to be happy and excepted by his peers. But all he got was...
October 14th
Its October 14th and I was just given the news that my last day at my job will be October 31st. And to be honest I couldn’t be more excited, not because I want to be lazy or sit around a home but because it was time. The 8 hours that I was at work I kid you not if you compressed the hours I actually work it would be about 3-4 hours. Not because I slacked or anything, but because we had no...
Who knew
If someone would have told me that I one day would be in this situation I would have never believed it. Who knew I would fall in love with someone living in another country. It’s not something I would have wanted to do, because it’s really hard. Not being able to hold them or kiss them good morning or good night. Or just too kiss hem just to kiss them.
Now I’ve been in this...
August 2011
2 posts
~Bored~
Don’t you hate it when you are at work with nothing to do, it’s like staring at paint dry. That’s my job….slow! Not that I don’t mind it, I mean I’m getting paid to play Angry Birds and Plants vs Zombies. Okay okay they are not paying to actually play those games, but I have nothing else to do. My work is so far done, just waiting on to see what else pops up on...
~Lets talk~
Why is it that when you think about blogging about a certain topic your brain becomes like diarrhea. Full of ideas and thoughts, but as soon as you wanna start writing it, your brain gets constipated. You like my analogy? I need some Brain Pepto Bismol Tehee
Any who I digress, so this year has been a tad stressful year. Lets see one my roommate is inconsiderate, he eats my food, drinks the...
June 2011
2 posts
What's love got to do with it?
Recently I have been hit with the “Reality Stick”. I’ve always thought I knew who I was, but recently I was told that I don’t. More then one person was pointed out that I don’t know who I am or what I want. And if I am going to be honest with myself, they are right. Let’s go back to the begging of how all this “revelation” came to be. On Sunday...
Excited/Lonely
This few couple of weeks have been both exciting and lonely….. Exciting because I am getting out and trying to make some new friends, which has always been a problem for me to do. One because I have always been in a relationship and they tended to take a lot of my time, not that I was/am complaining or that it’s a bad thing. In the situation that I am in at the moment it has given...
February 2011
8 posts
35 questions about LOVE & SEX
I know I’m late answering the same questions from the show 1 Girl 5 Gays. I’m two shows behind, but I am going to try to catch up. So this blog is actually going to have two episodes integrated in it. The first episode aired on 2/14 in the US (CA 9/10) the second episode aired on 2/21 in the US (CA 9/17). Now the show actually has 20 questions but some questions pertain to either...
Life WTF!?
I’m so sick and tired of this life, I wish I could just change everything about me, everything around me and everyone I know. But I cant, we have what we have and we try to make the best of it……whatever!
Now most of this blog wont make sense or it might jump around, but its the way my brain is working at the moment. Everything is jumbled up inside.
I’m so tired of all the...
Long Distance Relationships
So everyone has an in put in my relationship, so I have been seen Brad for almost a year (well a year in March). But everyone or most people believe or think that one of us if not both of us have cheated or will cheat. All I can say that everyone is different, not everyone is a cheater. Maybe we all have tendency to cheat, it’s just our actions that matter.
Now most people think that this...
19 questions about LOVE & SEX
So like I stated before I am kinda hooked on the show 1 Girl 5 Gays (1G5G), so when I heard that the second season was gonna be airing soon I was actually kind of excited. I have watched the few episodes that I am able to watch in the US. Which sucks because in Canada they are in season 2 episode like 18 or so…booo! Well any who, I started to record the new episodes every Monday at 11pm on...
Torn between two....
Its not what you think so don’t get all excited. Have you ever felt like you are torn between two personas? I know this sounds bipolar, but I’m not (or don’t think so…ha ha). Anyway I always say that I have two main personas that fight to take over, most people I talk to know what I mean and kid about it. In one side you have Christian who can be really sweet, caring,...
18 questions about LOVE & SEX
Okay, so I decided to watch 1 Girl / 5 Gays (1G5G) and post some of (sometimes all) the questions from the show and try to answer them. Now I’m going to be completely honest of this 1G5G questions that they have and we will see how it goes. After watching the show I had to delete two questions because they pertained to someone on the show (either specifically someone or someone on there...
Hmmm.....
What is this world coming too?? So in the news there was a women who shot and I believe killed her two kids because they talked back. A man strangles and stomps on the babies head because he wouldn’t stop crying. You hear more and more about this people that kill there kids because of the most dumbest things. Yeah I get that they were probably not in there right mind and all but seriously...
A few questions....
What is the wallpaper on your cellphone? RANDOM WALLPAPER
Did you get enough sleep last night? NO
What’s the first thing you thought about this morning? THAT I WAS STILL TIRED
What’s the last thing you thought about before you went to sleep last night? RATHER NOT SAY….TEHE
What do you have handy at your bedside? NOTHING DON’T GOT A BED
Grilled or Fried? DEFINITELY FRIED
What makes you...
January 2011
3 posts
1Girl 5 Gays
So I just finished watching two episodes of 1 Girl 5 Gays. The first couple times I saw this show I found it kinda boring and dumb, to me it seemed it had no substance so I stopped watching it. The other day the boyfriend wanted me to watch one of the episodes, the only problem is that since I’m in the US I cant really watch the new episodes. Which sucks!! Well after the show he wanted to...
Blame...
Recently on the news they had two 2nd graders having oral sex while the other kids watched in the class room. Two 2nd graders wow that’s pretty much all I can say, it’s crazy how younger and younger this kids are starting to experiment if you wanna call it that. Shoot this kids put me to shame, guess I was really a late bloomer.
Now we were talking about this at work and I...
What a week.....
You know this week has been one of the longest weeks for me. Work has been a tad hectic and that goes as well for my personal live….
Monday was crazy we got 6 trays of work which none of us were expecting. The courier who brings us our mail from the post office no longer has access to our floor. He has to submit some form for my job to do a background check. Now mind you he has been bringing us...
December 2010
5 posts
Kids and Sex....
So today at one of my coworkers asked a pretty good question. He had been watching this show and apparently the teenage child was having sex in there house. So the question was…..
How would you feel if you caught your child having sex and in your house?
Ok, so that’s two questions in one, but none the less its a good question or I think so. Plus, its always good to hear my other...
12-27-2010
Today was on ok day not to much going on. My stress level isn’t as bad as it has been this couple of days. So I decided to move out and stay at someones place. The rent is cheap and I have my own room and privacy.
My day was almost finally over and I started to get really light headed again, not sure what’s all that about. The first time I think it was because I was hungry so I ate. I had a fat...
Dot dot dot...
This month has to be one of the most stressful months of this year. And it has nothing to do with Christmas. Things at home have been kind of in the edge. Technically I am homeless, I have been staying at “who I thought was my so called best friend” but I should have known things weren’t going to be as easy as I thought they would be.
Let’s see I have no real privacy, I sleep on a couch in the...
Ello bitches im back......
Okay, I keep telling myself that I need to start writing more, but something always gets in the way. So I’m gonna try to write everyday………
So let’s see whats going on with me this past weeks.
Well X-mas eve was spent at my moms house with some family friends. We had a good time, ate some tamales and my moms yummy pasta. I know pasta and tamales?? But its so freaking...
November 2010
4 posts
WTF!!!
Today I went to the mall to get a hair cut and too do a little bit of shopping. I got my hair cut and made my way to American Eagle. While on the phone with Brad this guy comes up too me taps me on the shoulder and hands me this red envelope. Now at first I thought it was an employee there or someone trying to be nice and give me a coupon or something. Was I ever wrong, while on the phone I...
UGH!!!
This week has just started all wrong;
Monday, at work we were supper busy and we were short one person. And trying to get people to help us is impossible. I work with childish people that are so freaking lazy that don’t want to do any work. Besides been busy at work I had to deal with a leak in my brothers bathroom. So I was not also trying to work, but to deal with the builders of the...
October 2010
13 posts
Harvest Festival (aka Halloween Party)
So someone decided a few weeks ago that we should have a Halloween party, we had to change the title to Harvest Festival because not everyone celebrates Halloween. So being respectful we changed the name. A list was passed around for everyone to sign up and bring something. I was like okay I can do this, this should be fun. It was suppose to be for tomorrow but since tomorrow is my jobs Halloween...
The Work Place
I have had only three actual jobs so far, I have worked for Target (a little over 3 years) then there was Allied Home Mortgage (a little over 3 years too) and then there is Litton (5+ years). I have little odd jobs but they were more of a helping hand to someone I knew. I once was a bouncer for a few days cuz a friends bouncer got in a motorcycle accident and he needed someone to cover the door....
blackirises asked: This isnt really a question but just wanted to say that I love you and hope that you/we do figure things out. Cause I hate to see you depressed... 'nd when your happy I feel closer to you. I love you babe, and keep that head up for me :)
foreverjennie asked: What would you do if you found out after your all in love with Brad that he was actually a transgender and had no penis????
WTF!
Today I feel all blah, for some reason I feel like I am spiraling into a depression, but not sure why and how to stop it. I’ve always thought about taking antidepressants, but have always been forbidden from it. My uncle is a doctor and said that all it does is give you a temporary relief, but then you can become addicted to it. Things I already know. I just hate feeling this way cuz no good...
Annoyance ......
Why is it that we can easily be annoyed by the smallest thing? Someone can say something or do something and it just drives us crazy. I know first hand that for some reason things seem to be getting on my nerves more then ever. I can get annoyed by the way someone says something or has a certain look. I know that body language is a big factor when we talk to people. Sometime not meaning you...
Pondering....
Every now and then you question yourself; where you are headed, what you are doing, and how you are doing things. Sometimes you have to step back and see the bigger picture and try to figure out what your choices are and what the risks are too those choices. Every choice we make has a consequence, sometimes the consequence is greater then the choice , but sometimes the risk of the choice out ways...
foreverjennie asked: Why are most hotties gay??? Why must yall taint the good ones lol